January 2012
24 posts
2011.
What a hectic year. Obviously during the start, I was still high school. Mind you, high school was probably hands down the worst four years of my life. At least up until now. It was hell going to school everyday with people I hated. I started not caring about school or grades. I just wanted to get the hell out of there. I wanted to actually start living.
This is when I started taking jobs...
Wow, I think I’m finally over you.
I think I was holding onto you because I thought there was still hope. And also because I thought no one could love me like you, or that no one would love me. I don’t know. Just really insecure thoughts. I was scared that you were the only one for me. I forced myself to be sad that you were ignoring me, and I never gave myself a chance. I...
December 2011
26 posts
glass breaks so beautifully. how it somehow catches light even in the dark. Its not really pretty when its intact, but once it breaks..every little shimmering piece seems to hold its oen little secret. its so dangerous, too. that little piece can cut through your hand and create an infection. too bad beauty is pain. too bad everyones scared of broken glass when its really nothing at all.
just...
i don't have anything special to say about this...
fuck you, and fuck you too
i think a lot of people dont get that there cant always be good changes. theres two sides to every coin, right? you cant expect to get all the good in life without some bad. its inevitable. and yet some people are so aggressive and mean when something they deem bad happens. they suddenly hate “change” and they “wish everything was back to the way it was”. and then when a...
The Girl Who Kicked the Hornet's Nest
…..damn.
Fuck I saw you today and I was so over you but then you started doing your cute little shit and shit and fuck fuck you okay fuck you for confusing me sigh you always do this.
Ahhhhhhh
Kisskisskissskisskiss
My ONLY time off is on Sunday morning until 2:30, which is when I have to go back to work. That’s my only time to sleep in, eat, laze around…do whatever.
The lady that works with me KNOWS that. She knows I work every damn day from morning till night. She knows that those few hours before 2:30 are my only rest time. And yet she never fails to call me every Sunday morning, telling me to...
I keep having dreams where I wake up feeling extremely lonely. It’s to the point where I can feel it in my heart. It starts to ache, and I just feel this huge emptiness inside of me. It makes me want to cry, but only for a few moments.
I don’t know why this is happening. Soon, I feel like something is going to change inside of me, and I’m never going to be the same person...
Just fucking tell me.
Can you just straight up say that you don’t love me anymore? Just say that you’re over me, you’ve moved on. Stop doing petty shit like blocking me from your news feed. Just delete me if you’re going to be that childish.
I would think that you would at least have the courtesy to tell it to my face. Really, after all we’ve been through, the best...
Please don’t try and blame god or go to him only when you need something (and ESPECIALLY if that something you need is superficial)
it’s so fucking dumb i always see these bitches talking about god ONLY when they need something. i don’t believe in god, so this is all just my opinion, but i don’t think that’s really how it works. just cause you ask god for a hot...
I have so many unwritten stories inside of me.
Believe me, I want to get them out. They constantly swim around in my mind, and they’re slowly suffocating me. I would like nothing more than to finally be able to share my feelings with someone.
The thing is, every time I try to get it out on paper, it refuses. My words become all jumbled, and the finished product is far from what I really...
Do you think that no matter how strong fate is, if you recklessly ruin it with your own hands, it won’t come back? I mean, isn’t the point of fate to bring things together no matter what the odds? Or does the whole circle just break once you try too hard to go against it?
Eh. D:
Gah. What am I to do with you...
Yay,
The biggest season for lonely singles is coming up :)
Teehee. Kind of excited just for the holiday spirit and all the magical things that may or may not happen on Christmas! It doesn’t hurt to hope, right!? Haha.
Hope everyone is also having a greaaaat day planned out for Christmas, Christmas Eve, or the day after Christmas! (If you’re working ALL 3 days…..I deeply apologize...
Jeez..
My life is such a mess. One mistake after another. When did it get like this? More importantly, how did I not notice myself falling and crashing? Fuck it, I can’t even fix this shit anymore. Everything’s been falling apart, no matter how hard I tried to keep everything together. I fooled myself for a cool bit, but it all comes around in the end. There’s no point in keeping up...
faaaawk
I miss you. D:
I need advice. Please.
I fell in love, once in my life. Sophomore year. I can see why people would think it was just a crush, or that it wasn’t serious at all. I was pretty young, immature…but I’m going to risk sounding like a love sick teenager when I say: you just don’t understand what happened between us two. But here I go anyways. For the last time, trying to explain what happened- and maybe,...
I'm cold and alone and I want to write a sad story...
Everything you say is hinting…
No guy can hold a conversation with you without it turning flirty -_-
Hm.
What do you guys think about age differences? Should it stop you from meeting people? Does it actually matter? Aren’t you just limiting yourself from all sorts of possibilities, when you put these barriers up?
I don’t know how I feel about this… on one hand, it really shouldn’t matter. Love is love, and it just happens. You can’t really “stop” it just...
Every time I see you do some stupid shit, I try to make myself believe that you’re stupid and this is exactly why I don’t like you. Except it never works like that, and I just keep falling over and over for you.
Augh, it’s so frustrating because you don’t show me any of your feelings, so I can’t tell for shit what you’re thinking! And you know it, and you...
No way. →
In a stunning move that has civil libertarians stuttering with disbelief, the U.S. Senate has just passed a bill that effectively ends the Bill of Rights in America.
SO FUCKING ANNOYED.
If you ever, ever, EVER, for some stupid reason, decide to room together with friends/close friends/strangers…MAKE A SET OF RULES. And don’t break it just because you’re lazy. Seriously.
Some people are so fucking dirty. We only have like one pot, and this girl always uses it and leaves it there, so whoever has to use it next has to wash it.
No one ever takes the trash out...
There’s the kind of cold that goes away with body warmth, or a hundred layers.
Then there’s the kind of cold that’s impossible to get away from. The kind that chills you down to the core of your bones. The cold that you can feel deep inside, no matter how many jackets you put on; no matter how many people you snuggle up with, hoping they’re the one that can make you feel...