January 2012
18 posts
You know, I think a LOT of people (myself included) are scared to get to know themselves. Instead of looking within and all that shit, they tend to lean on words from the screen, and what people tell them.
They never give themselves a chance. I guess they’re scared to find out what kind of person they really are. Of course they think they know themselves, but they don’t realize that...
you know, being a virgin at 18 doesnt make you any purer. being a virgin at 40 doesnt make you any more pitiful.
i see all these little girls basically wearing ther vriginities on their sleeves, as if it makes up for their defiled attitudes. they look down on girls that already had sex. no honey, for your information, i have plenty of friends that have already had sex, and youre sluttier than...
before i started following this tattoo site on tumblr, i would always think the majority of peoples tattoos were ugly. i was never able to hear their stories, so unless it was pleasing to my eye, i deemed them dumb to get something so “ugly”.
but now i realize that everyone has their reaaons. im sure some people really do get a mickey mouse tatted on their ass just for the fuck of...
my mom stopped me from doing the traditional bow on new years cause she didnt wanna give me money LOL. ^^
You know, I realized something really simple because of my bathroom door.
It has a lock and everything, and every other door in the house does as well. All you have to do is turn the lock to secure the door.
I never even thought the lock would be broken. I never even tested it…I just always thought it worked because the doorknob wouldn’t turn once you locked it.
My friend came over...
sometimes i see people say “sorry”, or “its okay” when they dont really mean it.
i understand if the situation calls for it, like youre talking to a cop or something…then you should definitely say sorry. but otherwise, why lie?
does it make you feel good? all youre doing is lying to yourself, and hurting the other person in the long run.
id much rather have...
you know the things about phones, is that theyre all machines. theyre prone to defects and failures. just because you tried clicking on something and it didnt work, doesnt mean we ripped you off. it alao doesnt mean the whole thing is defective, which is probaby why we cant exchange it for you. theyre expensive things, and we can do anything at your whim, because we have policies as well.
its...
Damn, you’re such an attention whore.
Everything you say has some hidden meaning…everything you say is meant for guys to reply to… And you know they’re gonna reply with something good about you.
You just like to fuck around with people.
Eh.
I think like once every 3-4 months, I have the whole office to myself.
It feels lovely. :’3
You know what’s really rude and annoying when you’re working?
When your co-workers are fucking lazy and try to do the least amount of work. Wait no, because that would imply that my co-worker actually does work.
Like I said, it’s really rude for the person after you. When you work in a food court, there’s a lot of small things to take care of, like: filling small...
No matter how hard you try to protect your friends, you can’t shield them from everything. No matter how many lectures you give them, it’s ultimately up to them to listen or not. It’s not like in the movies where they’re doing something bad and they suddenly flash back to when you told them not to, and they somehow remember the exact words you said, what you were wearing,...
i should stop paying so much attention to ifs. if this if that…instead of always thinking if, maybe i should actually take action. if im not, i should stop wasting my time thinking about it. time is precious, even more so than money. and im constantly wasting it like i have an unlimited supply, when really its the other way around.
stop being such a coward!! if you really want somethig...
2011.
What a hectic year. Obviously during the start, I was still high school. Mind you, high school was probably hands down the worst four years of my life. At least up until now. It was hell going to school everyday with people I hated. I started not caring about school or grades. I just wanted to get the hell out of there. I wanted to actually start living.
This is when I started taking jobs...
Wow, I think I’m finally over you.
I think I was holding onto you because I thought there was still hope. And also because I thought no one could love me like you, or that no one would love me. I don’t know. Just really insecure thoughts. I was scared that you were the only one for me. I forced myself to be sad that you were ignoring me, and I never gave myself a chance. I...
December 2011
26 posts
glass breaks so beautifully. how it somehow catches light even in the dark. Its not really pretty when its intact, but once it breaks..every little shimmering piece seems to hold its oen little secret. its so dangerous, too. that little piece can cut through your hand and create an infection. too bad beauty is pain. too bad everyones scared of broken glass when its really nothing at all.
just...
i don't have anything special to say about this...
fuck you, and fuck you too
i think a lot of people dont get that there cant always be good changes. theres two sides to every coin, right? you cant expect to get all the good in life without some bad. its inevitable. and yet some people are so aggressive and mean when something they deem bad happens. they suddenly hate “change” and they “wish everything was back to the way it was”. and then when a...
The Girl Who Kicked the Hornet's Nest
…..damn.
Fuck I saw you today and I was so over you but then you started doing your cute little shit and shit and fuck fuck you okay fuck you for confusing me sigh you always do this.
Ahhhhhhh
Kisskisskissskisskiss
My ONLY time off is on Sunday morning until 2:30, which is when I have to go back to work. That’s my only time to sleep in, eat, laze around…do whatever.
The lady that works with me KNOWS that. She knows I work every damn day from morning till night. She knows that those few hours before 2:30 are my only rest time. And yet she never fails to call me every Sunday morning, telling me to...
I keep having dreams where I wake up feeling extremely lonely. It’s to the point where I can feel it in my heart. It starts to ache, and I just feel this huge emptiness inside of me. It makes me want to cry, but only for a few moments.
I don’t know why this is happening. Soon, I feel like something is going to change inside of me, and I’m never going to be the same person...
Just fucking tell me.
Can you just straight up say that you don’t love me anymore? Just say that you’re over me, you’ve moved on. Stop doing petty shit like blocking me from your news feed. Just delete me if you’re going to be that childish.
I would think that you would at least have the courtesy to tell it to my face. Really, after all we’ve been through, the best...
Please don’t try and blame god or go to him only when you need something (and ESPECIALLY if that something you need is superficial)
it’s so fucking dumb i always see these bitches talking about god ONLY when they need something. i don’t believe in god, so this is all just my opinion, but i don’t think that’s really how it works. just cause you ask god for a hot...
I have so many unwritten stories inside of me.
Believe me, I want to get them out. They constantly swim around in my mind, and they’re slowly suffocating me. I would like nothing more than to finally be able to share my feelings with someone.
The thing is, every time I try to get it out on paper, it refuses. My words become all jumbled, and the finished product is far from what I really...
Do you think that no matter how strong fate is, if you recklessly ruin it with your own hands, it won’t come back? I mean, isn’t the point of fate to bring things together no matter what the odds? Or does the whole circle just break once you try too hard to go against it?
Eh. D:
Gah. What am I to do with you...
Yay,
The biggest season for lonely singles is coming up :)
Teehee. Kind of excited just for the holiday spirit and all the magical things that may or may not happen on Christmas! It doesn’t hurt to hope, right!? Haha.
Hope everyone is also having a greaaaat day planned out for Christmas, Christmas Eve, or the day after Christmas! (If you’re working ALL 3 days…..I deeply apologize...
Jeez..
My life is such a mess. One mistake after another. When did it get like this? More importantly, how did I not notice myself falling and crashing? Fuck it, I can’t even fix this shit anymore. Everything’s been falling apart, no matter how hard I tried to keep everything together. I fooled myself for a cool bit, but it all comes around in the end. There’s no point in keeping up...
faaaawk
I miss you. D:
I need advice. Please.
I fell in love, once in my life. Sophomore year. I can see why people would think it was just a crush, or that it wasn’t serious at all. I was pretty young, immature…but I’m going to risk sounding like a love sick teenager when I say: you just don’t understand what happened between us two. But here I go anyways. For the last time, trying to explain what happened- and maybe,...
I'm cold and alone and I want to write a sad story...
Everything you say is hinting…
No guy can hold a conversation with you without it turning flirty -_-
Hm.
What do you guys think about age differences? Should it stop you from meeting people? Does it actually matter? Aren’t you just limiting yourself from all sorts of possibilities, when you put these barriers up?
I don’t know how I feel about this… on one hand, it really shouldn’t matter. Love is love, and it just happens. You can’t really “stop” it just...
Every time I see you do some stupid shit, I try to make myself believe that you’re stupid and this is exactly why I don’t like you. Except it never works like that, and I just keep falling over and over for you.
Augh, it’s so frustrating because you don’t show me any of your feelings, so I can’t tell for shit what you’re thinking! And you know it, and you...
No way. →
In a stunning move that has civil libertarians stuttering with disbelief, the U.S. Senate has just passed a bill that effectively ends the Bill of Rights in America.
SO FUCKING ANNOYED.
If you ever, ever, EVER, for some stupid reason, decide to room together with friends/close friends/strangers…MAKE A SET OF RULES. And don’t break it just because you’re lazy. Seriously.
Some people are so fucking dirty. We only have like one pot, and this girl always uses it and leaves it there, so whoever has to use it next has to wash it.
No one ever takes the trash out...
There’s the kind of cold that goes away with body warmth, or a hundred layers.
Then there’s the kind of cold that’s impossible to get away from. The kind that chills you down to the core of your bones. The cold that you can feel deep inside, no matter how many jackets you put on; no matter how many people you snuggle up with, hoping they’re the one that can make you feel...
It feels like time is passing by so slowly, but when I look at the big picture, and see how long I’ve been doing the same shit day to day….I feel like a grandma.
November 2011
33 posts
Awkward, is what I felt when I heard you liked someone else.
I didn’t know what to feel honestly, or if I was even allowed to feel what my heart was hinting towards. Do I?? Do I have any right to let these emotions swirl inside of me? Why are they happening? I didn’t think I would react like this. I have no right to think about you or care about you…right? If it’s so...
You have no idea how much I hold back because of you. How many opportunities I’ve slammed down because of you.
I guess it’s kind of cowardly to blame this all on you, since you aren’t actually doing anything. But the feel of you plagues me. I can’t look at anyone without first comparing how different, how superficial they are compared to you.
Every since that day, my...
i want messages. :D →
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Since both of my jobs have the same boss, it’s pretty convenient. I work at the office until 6:30, and then go to the food court until 8:30-9:00. I’m always complaining that it’s so hard, that I don’t want to go, that I wish I could just go home. My boss asked me several times, whether I was too tired or not. Every single time, I never failed to reassure him that...
