it’s kind of sad when the person you really, really like posts statuses about their feelings, and you just know it’s not you.

uhhhhhh….you’re….complaining to me about the doing the dishes because it’s overflowing?? hmm let’s see

i have one pot in there that i boiled WATER in. so dirty and hard to clean.

you have two fucking frying pans that you cooked meat and rice and shit on, you have plates and dishes that you ate on, you have chopsticks and spoons and forks and the spatula and the fucking griddle and shit you poured down the drain from instant ramen and god knows what else.

and you have the audacity to tell me to do MY dishes? you fucking idiot you piece of shit motherfucker i hate you and i’m so glad you’re moving out in 3 days you motherFUCKER

It’s funny how we demand two things at once.

We’re lazy and we love fattening foods and we don’t want to give it up, then we do five push ups and complain that we’re not losing weight and it’s sooooo hard. If you REALLY had determination, you wouldn’t eat those sugars and unhealthy things. You’d watch what you eat and actually research a healthy diet plan instead of stupidly starving yourself and “exercising” for a week, and going back to your old routine. How do you think you look to people? It’s called discipline, and you’re honestly not going to get anywhere without it, whether it’s physical satisfaction, or education. You think just because you sit on your ass and complain about your friends that don’t gain weight, that you’re going to get any thinner? Just because someone can eat junk food every day and not gain a single pound, does not mean it’s the same for you.

People are so stupid.

sometimes, the things you say are so insensitive.

maybe from your point of view, it really was just a neutral comment. but thats the thing, were all people, and you cant live life looking at things through your eyes only. thats how you end up alone, wondering where everyone went…and even then youll wonder why and you wont even realize that it was you pushing them away all along.

we all think and process things differently. its weirdly beautiful, the fact that almost no one thinks alike 100%. something you think is really important, like outer beauty, can mean next to nothing to someone else. and you probably wont understand how they dont care about how they look, but you dont have to understand. just take them for what they are- different.

stop with your thoughtless words, and take a second or two to consider how the other person would feel.

I hate when I do something wrong and someone covers for me and they get in trouble instead… urghlaklarakjsf :(

You know, I think a LOT of people (myself included) are scared to get to know themselves. Instead of looking within and all that shit, they tend to lean on words from the screen, and what people tell them.

They never give themselves a chance. I guess they’re scared to find out what kind of person they really are. Of course they think they know themselves, but they don’t realize that the image they have of themselves is really composed of all the small comments they heard from other people. They think it’s their own thoughts, and most of them are negative. And then they wonder why they always feel so down, so depressed, so anxious and self-conscious… it’s because they trick themselves into thinking that that’s actually them.

Let me tell you, this is so not true. Just try to get the know the real you. I can’t really give any steps, or even any tips, because it’s different for everyone. 

For me, I always thought badly of myself. There wasn’t a moment where I would compliment myself. The best I could do was “oh, you look acceptable today.” I never truly thought that I was pretty, or cute, or beautiful. Actually, I still don’t, lol. It’s a process I tell you. But I’m already finding that a lot of things that I thought were me….aren’t. I’m not who I thought I was, and this is all so weird because I’ve kind of been living with this image of myself for quite a while. I feel like I’m connecting with a complete stranger, and everything feels so cautious. But it feels good, to know that I can be wrong. Because then that means that other things can be wrong. And that means that maybe I’m not so bad after all.

I can’t really pinpoint what exactly started this kind of thought….maybe it was my amazing, amazing, AMAZING friend who constantly supports me and tells me nice things about myself, even though I never believed it :p Or maybe it was just the fact that I felt so limited to the life I was living…. you should know that having no confidence and constantly checking yourself is not a fun life. It puts huge restraints on what you can and can’t do.

I know it sounds like obvious advice, but it’s really hard to follow. You might have a burst of inspiration to feel good about yourself, but eventually that all fades. You need to find something that will grow inside of you until it is you- not something that temporarily fills you up… you know!?

Haha…well I just wanted to write about this because I think this is my seed and when it grows and I look back on it…I’ll be able to see how and where it all started, and what helped it grow along the way.

Gah, I’m probably being really general and cliche right now, but it’s just because I don’t know how else to describe this!

Welll…..I was all bad at saying goodbye so….yeah…bye. :) 

ko kki ri~

you know, being a virgin at 18 doesnt make you any purer. being a virgin at 40 doesnt make you any more pitiful.

i see all these little girls basically wearing ther vriginities on their sleeves, as if it makes up for their defiled attitudes. they look down on girls that already had sex. no honey, for your information, i have plenty of friends that have already had sex, and youre sluttier than any one of them.

you cant even say the word sex without stuttering or turning red, so why boast about not having ever done it?

if you havent, thats great for you, but you have to realize that its a personal choice as well. not everyone is going to make the same decisions as you.

stop being so narrow minded!

before i started following this tattoo site on tumblr, i would always think the majority of peoples tattoos were ugly. i was never able to hear their stories, so unless it was pleasing to my eye, i deemed them dumb to get something so “ugly”.

but now i realize that everyone has their reaaons. im sure some people really do get a mickey mouse tatted on their ass just for the fuck of it…but that doesnt mean everyone does, right?

lets be a little more open-minded, marian. :)

my mom stopped me from doing the traditional bow on new years cause she didnt wanna give me money LOL. ^^

You know, I realized something really simple because of my bathroom door.

It has a lock and everything, and every other door in the house does as well. All you have to do is turn the lock to secure the door.

I never even thought the lock would be broken. I never even tested it…I just always thought it worked because the doorknob wouldn’t turn once you locked it.

My friend came over once, and he found out that all you had to do was push a little to open the door, even though it was locked.

It happened a while ago, but I just realized that we do this a lot. We expect things to work, everything is colored in the lines. What we don’t realize is that just because a door is locked does not mean it’s secure. Just because the doorknob doesn’t turn doesn’t mean the lock is working. We depend on these things to work. We think that a shut door means your chance is over. 

But everyone deserves second chances right? Maybe if you give a little push, it will open for you again. :)

sometimes i see people say “sorry”, or “its okay” when they dont really mean it.

i understand if the situation calls for it, like youre talking to a cop or something…then you should definitely say sorry. but otherwise, why lie?

does it make you feel good? all youre doing is lying to yourself, and hurting the other person in the long run.

id much rather have someone be completely honest with me, even if it hurts. to me, that shows that the friend actually cares about me and my well being. if your friend is chubby and she asks you if shes chubby, you shouldnt automatically say no. just tell her the truth, and if she gets really hurt or even ends your friendship right then and there, then she wasnt a great friend to begin with.

you know the things about phones, is that theyre all machines. theyre prone to defects and failures. just because you tried clicking on something and it didnt work, doesnt mean we ripped you off. it alao doesnt mean the whole thing is defective, which is probaby why we cant exchange it for you. theyre expensive things, and we can do anything at your whim, because we have policies as well.

its ao annoying when customers try to blame it on us. like you lost your phone after 3 months and you dont have insurance? okayyy…thats completely your fault. why are you getting mad at us? we cant do anything for you, so you might as well stop complaining because youre wasting your breath.